Hello first post here, and a rather odd one.
Recently for the past few months i have felt a lil strange, all started in my lower region, I found a tiny lump on my right testicle,
i got it in my head i had a big problem, Testicle cancer, I went to the docs asap to get the once over and he told me it was no more than a epidermal cyst, or an appendix of the testicle.
This sunk into my head for a lil while but i started to look online, Freaked the hell out of me! So i went to the docs again this time a different doc to ask the same things, i was told to stop touching and all was fine.
Then i went a third time, This was odd for me as i had been to the doctors maybe twice in a 10 year period.
This time the doc looked again and just said its really nothing, and to stop looking on the web and worrying yourself. Which admittedly i know im doing.
After 3 visits i finally got it in my head nothing was wrong! THEN! i randomly decided to do a lil research into the symptoms of testicular cancers and where they can spread to, The main answer being the lungs, and BRAIN!
i straight away felt a lil sick knowing that as brain tumors like most people are one of my biggest worries ever!
So this is where my newest issue has come.
I started feeling very tired, mainly due to worry i know! and a lil dizzy, this i couldn’t explain, other than worry aswel.
I then had what i think was a panic attack, but it seemed to last a lil longer than most people say panic attacks last, so i think i had multiple panic attacks over a few hours.
i know instantly that i was having one just because of the sweats and huge amount of sudden fear, but it still didn’t stop me worrying about the big C
So im now at a point where i have got a small swell on the back of my head over one of those small bones alot of people have on the back of there head near the large bone in the back but to the left (sorry bad explaining) most people have one on either side of the head… :S
I went to the doctors just to check this out and i was told muscle swell, didn’t even know muscle was there but it is… Its somewhat gone down in the last 4 weeks. but still kinda there.
I have been on holiday recently and when i came back i discovered a tiny bump in the side of my neck, i think its a lymph node, sort of the size of a pea and a lil soft, not really movable mind.
i have had this about 3 weeks now and its not got any bigger, maybe a little smaller. It seems larger in the morning…
I also have another tiny lump on the other side of my neck a little lower down, this one just appeared and it kind of hurts, I have been to the doctors again about these and i was told it could be small fat build ups, lymph nodes or cysts.
Im really worried and i dont know why that it could be a sign of something in the brain, i have just got it in my head that its that mainly by looking online, Something i wish i had never done.
I dont know if neck nodes are a sign of a brain tumor or not?
I have no real headaches or anything.
i obviously have tight neck muscles from stressing. i have soooooooooo much stress with what i do for a living so that doesn’t help much.
I feel a little disconnected and un motivated, i feel mainly because i am thinking to much about my health and worrying about it.
My eyes are always blood shot! however i sleep very well. I think i have just become over aware of my body. and im feeling things that are suppose to be there.
But i just thought id make sure as i know a lot of people on here have been through issues with there head and would just like some insight into that, I feel like a total idiot asking, as i know people out there have had alot worse but i just cant seem to get this idea out of my head and its now worrying me and effecting my work which i cant allow to happen.
Thanks for any replys in advance.
